WOW

I have been following a Blog at antisocialdiva. Boy what a drag. Her husband hired a whore off the internet! then cheated on her. I was mad because I found out mine was cruising pay porn sites. Hopefully he has never done this. He just hasn't told me he loves me in so long, I don't even remember when the last time he did it was, almost a year I think.

It has been a very hectic week at work, and I am having a hard time getting my butt out of bed in the morning. I also want to move my web site to a more "cool" place where I can us more photos and have a nicer format. It seems like although I am supposedly the IT guru, I can't fucking figure out how to make my site look nicer. hmmmm.

Summer Solstice

Today is the first day of Summer. Is this important to me? No, I hate summer. Especially here in Southern California. It is hot, smoggy and sticky. I loved summers in Lake Tahoe. Afternoon thunderheads gathering at the mountain tops. Very spectacular.

Yesterday Jacob graduated from the 8th grade. He turned 14 on June 17. I can hardly believe that he is already almost a man. What would Barbara think. He was her baby.

Candice is home from college and being annoying. No job yet, and she is out every single night.

I suppose I am not in a very good mood right now.

Read Me

I haven't picked up a book for a while. I think I am overloaded on my animal stories and need a dose age of reality. I want to go out and get Prodigal Summer, but I have several books that I bought and have not read yet.

I will be driving up to UCSC to move Candice down home for summer break. I have spoken to her at least a half dozen times on this subject, and she changes the way it is going to happen each time. I finally said I am coming on Thursday , packing the car and driving home Friday. Geez. I hope she does not turn into the Drama Queen over the summer. I won't be able to handle it.

Dreams

I keep having dreams about my sister. But in my dreams Natalie and my sister seem to be almost the same person, it is almost as if I am going through some of the same drama with Barbara as Natalie. It is quite distressing.

Dreams sometime are better than reality. Last week I wanted to sleep a lot, it was almost as if I wanted to go back to the dream world to see what would happen next. I was dreaming about many of the people who had left my life, my father, my sister, my grandfather. Even some of the animals that are gone, Sniffer... my grandfathers Beagle. It was really weird. But there was not closure.

I need to go back to sleep.