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 April 21, 2003 4:21 pm say hello! Ah! the therapy. Well it sucked, and I ended up with a splitting headache from crying. Though it seems as if maybe he might have “got it”. Got what? I am not sure but something began to click because he was unusually kind to me this weekend. Especially yesterday when I went to see my grandma who is in a hospice. It just breaks my heart every time I go, and I end up just coming home and drinking and crying.
I am a very emotional person, and Andy just can’t handle it. When I get mad and say things, he will hold a grudge for ever. I used to get angry a lot. Especially at the girls, they were such bitches! About 3 years ago I started to take paxil. It tempered my mood swings some, but they really got better about a year ago when Natalie went to live with Uncle John. Then the sanity began to return. I have had a few “explosions” but they are few and far between. The problem is Andy is still holding a grudge form 5 years ago!
Well I have missed a few days… during that time Natalie decided she wanted OUT of the hospital and basically threw a tantrum and told the doctor she would sign herself out AMA if he didn’t discharge her. So he discharged her. I am mad and don’t want to think about anything. It poured all day yesterday. I love the rain. I wish we would get some more, no it’s sunny today. Oh, well. Walter is still here. He left for about two days, then came back and has not left since. I feed him in the morning and when I get home at night. He starts to coo now when I go out on the patio. I love it. I bought the American Idol game for the “Shindig” which I probably won’t be going to, but all those girls can play and think of me! Party on! April 3, 2003 In
case you guys didn’t know by now I have pet rats.
At one time I had a total of 5, now I just have jack and DunDun.
Unfortunately these little critters have a fairly short life
expectancy, 2 years. During
the time these little guys have owned me I have met a few other rat
lovers, and been to a RATFEST. A
party celebrating them, with the normal party stuff, food prizes,
raffles, etc. I offered to
Host the next Ratfest, and have my friend the vet coming to do a
presentation on rat health etc. So when I received this e-mail from some
guy named David I was a little unsure until I called him and looked at
the site: Ann: events
we might be able to film for our rat documentary for the
Willard DVD? wanted
to be able to catch as many rat related events on camera
as possible! wanted
to be able to catch as many rat related events on camera
as possible! below,
or our researcher, Michael Jarvis at phone number with
more information? David The
Naylor Group, LLC Phone
number www.dvdbonusfeatures.com COMING
TO FILM IT!!!! April 2, 2003 After about 6 weeks of no posts I am back.
I don’t know what happened.
There was tooo much on my plate and instead of taking off
something that I could care less about, my journaling suffered.
It is a good release for me, so it was not a wise decision. Natalie has been in and out of the hospital, as I write this
she in “in”. I had to
drive out to Pear Blossom, which is about a 2 hour drive each way, to
pick her up from her 3 day Senior Retreat and rush her to the hospital:/
At this point I was just pissed, as she had not been taking
proper care of herself. She
is doing a good job of slowing damaging her lungs, so that the only
option will soon be a transplant. I have a new pet, sorta.
Two Sundays ago I went to the Wisteria Festival in the town where
I live. Normally we walk,
but I pulled a muscle in my back and we (Sari) and I called Andy to come
into town and pick us up. Driving
home, Sari suddenly ask Andy to pull over.
She had thought she saw a downed hawk, however as we walked up
the hawk took off and under him was a pigeon. He sorta waddled away.
Sari went over and picked him up.
He was in ok shape a little blood by the eye.
SO when we got home, she took off to the clinic with him. He
survived and she called me and asked if I would release him where he was
found which is just down the hill from where I live.
So Friday I went and picked him up and released him.
The problem was that he didn’t want to “be free”,.
He stayed on my hand. I
put him on the grass, and stood there waiting for him to fly away
freely. After about a
45-minute wait, I picked him up and took him home.
I immediately called the veterinarians office and told them that
the pigeon did not want to be released and I had him at home.
One of the techs suggested that I put him on the patio and sit
with him for a while and see what happens.
Well I sat with him, chased him around the patio and he flew up
into the eve on the roof. A
nice cozy spot for a bird, sheltered from the sun, not in view of where
the hawks hang out. Above
where I feed the other birds, so he can watch what is going on.
This is where he still is, along with a water dish, and daily
rations of seed and bread that I put up there in the morning. I just
need to go up 2 steps on the step stool to reach it, so it isn’t to
inconvenient. And we named him. What
else but Walter Pigeon. J
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